This morning was in a sense an adventure. Something unique. Something never felt before. But one which was comforting while a numbness pervaded my thoughts and senses. It is impossible to explain how this numbness was taking over so very easily, it is easy to explain why. I chose to let it take charge and let my mind swim in that heady feeling. The conductor was ready.
Unkempt hair (have I ever done that?) and wearing a slight smile at the edge as I entered office. A conversation that needed complete attention got a vacant stare and an occupied mind focused on a singular face. A face which refused to disappear from every object that the eye fell on. I could hear the chords.
A sudden heaviness in breath was partially abated by a glass of water but wasn't to be easily shaken off. An half an hour period when even the simplest of words refused to arrive, expect one name. The humming had started.
Could I hear your voice or was I hallucinating? It didn't matter one way or the other. Maybe I should have just called you. Just to hear you say Jerry. You did call, not a short while after. My heart skipped a beat. Maybe this was telepathy. No, this was one unforgettable song. Or was it just the beginning of an unending performance.
On infinite loop. À jamais.
4 Nov 2016
Unkempt hair (have I ever done that?) and wearing a slight smile at the edge as I entered office. A conversation that needed complete attention got a vacant stare and an occupied mind focused on a singular face. A face which refused to disappear from every object that the eye fell on. I could hear the chords.
A sudden heaviness in breath was partially abated by a glass of water but wasn't to be easily shaken off. An half an hour period when even the simplest of words refused to arrive, expect one name. The humming had started.
Could I hear your voice or was I hallucinating? It didn't matter one way or the other. Maybe I should have just called you. Just to hear you say Jerry. You did call, not a short while after. My heart skipped a beat. Maybe this was telepathy. No, this was one unforgettable song. Or was it just the beginning of an unending performance.
On infinite loop. À jamais.
4 Nov 2016
